Friday, May 17, 2013

Identities

Recently I met an exchange student from the U.S. (Arizona, if memory serves right). We talked about our studies and I was sort of surprised that she had a double mayor which included Spanish. I assumed most Americans didn't take learning Spanish as a second language seriously. She agreed with me, told me "Our education system doesn't put enough emphasis in learning other languages. Most people here know two languages, some even dominate English better than I do! We think we're such hot stuff, but we're really very ignorant." This is a sentiment I'd heard before out of the mouths of other islanders like me, but I was surprised to hear it coming from someone born and raised in the states. I'd always considered this argument as a sweeping generalization (unreliable at best), but hearing it out of her mouth makes me doubt. She's lived there all her life, she must know what the people are like better than I do. I guess I also assumed that  somehow her stronger sense of national identity would predispose her to soften her judgement of her country.

And here lies the crux of the matter: national identities. It's been said often, and I mostly agree, that Puerto Rico doesn't have a national identity. How could we? First the natives of this country were wiped out by the Spaniards and black slaves were brought in. (A mix of races produces a mix of cultures.) When it looked like we would finally have our political rights as Spanish citizens recognized, the U.S. engages them in war and we pass from the hands of one oppressor to the next. With the U.S. came industrialization: instead of us growing and earning our advances on our own, we blazed through that process (in comparison to the years of development it took in many countries). All of these facts factor into our history as a nation, but that history is somehow alien to us because, always, someone else was the mayor player: we're a perpetual colony. 

I've always found different countries' traditional garments very interesting, particularly when fashion looks upon its own past and uses them as inspiration. But in my country, the clothing we are told is supposed to have some traditional meaning, the "jíbaro" garb we are required to wear on school events during the holidays, feels like a mock-up of what "traditional garments" should be. What is the point of it, other than the fact that (questionably) similar clothing was worn by the poor farmers that inhabited this island? It does not feel like there is really any history behind it, there is no true sense of "tradition" attached to it. Agriculture has stopped being what it once was and our societal structure has changed a lot since then. Is the point to celebrate our mixed cultural background? What values are we really supposed to feel nostalgia for?

They even made me wear black face once... I don't even know.
"traditional puertorrican clothing" provided by Google Images

It's like looking at old pictures and not being able to recognize yourself. I think when my nation looks to the past, it sees nothing of what currently characterizes it and nothing worth rescuing. (Who really wants to see someone write another "La Carreta" and hear the tired old dictum to "love your land"?) But, then again, is not having a national identity really a bad thing? I don't think so. This lack of identity has been often cited to point out "What Is Wrong With Our Society", and it doesn't convince me. I think it limits the scope of our understanding -and managing- of our modern concerns. I'd rather consider myself a citizen of the world -and I'm convinced that this is what the future is leading us towards- than have to box myself into some sort of "puertorrican identity". So far, the only theorization of our identity that I agree with is Mara Negron's reading of the Caribbean as "cannibalism": we gorge upon, and regurgitate, the culture of our conquerors. We take it out of context, bring out its contradictions, assemble it in new forms and "make it our own". But in the end, what is the purpose of tradition if there is no real origin? If nothing can be truly "ours"?

Saturday, May 11, 2013

Again and again

Finals are officially over, summer has begun! I'm back! The pressure of getting assignments done wasn't the only reason for this unannounced hiatus. I damaged the screen on my point-and-shoot camera, so I haven't been able to take outfit pictures. :( I do have an outfit picture (from back when my camera worked and the weather wasn't quite so warm) that I neglected to post.


Bow: Aldo
Cardigan: Zara
Cutsew: Ralph Lauren
Socks: ebay
Shoes: Payless

A completely off-brand lolita outfit. Is it obvious that I love this skirt? I couldn't resist doing a casual take on circus-themed lolita when I got these mis-matched striped and diamond print socks in the mail (though their quality left much to be desired). I'm always on the look-out for socks and tights with cool prints. One of the hardest things, to me, about wearing lolita while being fat is finding legwear (and blouses, of course) to match my personal tastes. I should get a burgundy colored velvet side-bow instead of a black one to balance out the color, don't you think?

Being that I am frequently in love with what I wear, I have still been taking some random detail pictures. (They're mostly of new things I've bought.)

Little mint colored horns, for creepy-cute outfits 
I adore these lavender loafers


And finally, Stained Glass leggings from Sock Dreams. There are no words for how epic these are.

I do want to invest on a good camera, though. (With a reliable warranty to protect it from falls. I'm such a klutz! >_<) Now that I have free time, I could play around with it and see what I can create. So be on the look out for new content!

Thursday, April 4, 2013

Sheer Fabrics, Barthes, Derrida, and the Charged Nature of the Body


The idea for this article began with this picture and the following comments posted over at The Sartorialist under the heading "Let’s Discuss..... Sheer". What got me thinking wasn't really the picture, or Scott's brief but brilliant observation on the outfit, my interest was particularly piqued by these smart comments:

- ". . . and yet , isn’t it not just the “long, sloping curve of the torso” that makes this image compelling, but rather the fact that if the garment weren’t transparent, it would hide the elegant slope of her body? Because the blouse is made of chiffon, we’re allowed an intimacy that is generally not permitted, unless the weather is warm.
One could make the case that human beings started wearing clothes to obscure the truth of what the body was doing underneath all of those textiles. Today, when fashion employs sheer fabrics, it’s a bit of nostalgia for a more vulnerable time in human evolution, when , just a fig leaf or two would have sufficed. I love being reminded to question which fruit actually should be forbidden."
- "I love that you said that. I often think of clothing as protection – from the elements but also as a visual layer that both expresses “you” if you choose, and also acts as a front to hide or protect the real you. It depends on your intentions, and it’s up to the viewer to either trust you or not. With sheer, that’s taken away a bit, and the wearer is literally and figuratively more transparent."
- "Since clothing usually has the dual function of protection and expression, but with sheer the clothes are entirely there for expression and thus there is a far more socially interesting interaction between the clothing, the body and the viewer. Clothing usually serves to obscure and change the body, but sheer adds another more immediate aspect of clothing, which is the shape and movement of the body beneath the clothing. Normally, the body is represented through the shape, cut, color, texture, but sheer problematizes the act of viewing by reminding us of the socially charged nature of the body. Through the potentially uncomfortable navigation of looking at a body through sheer fabric, a space that is not clearly governed by social norms of viewing, we are made more aware of ourself as interested viewers looking at the normally covered body of another. It’s a very interesting experience and interaction!"

All this discussion of intimacy/truth and voyeurism reminded me of a text I had read for one of my comparative literature courses. One of the few that I enjoyed: "The Pleasure of the Text" by Roland Barthes. What does this have to do with fashion, you might ask? Well, Roland Barthes draws a parallel between the body and the text: he compares the pleasure of reading a text with the pleasure of viewing a body that partially reveals itself (because we can never know the text in its complex entirety, just as we can never know the body in its complex entirety, and this is what keeps our interest alive). His way of connecting body and text is still something I admire. It was a text I read after I decided to take fashion more seriously but before I could comprehend my growing belief that bodies always engage in representation, and thus they can also be "read". I ran into an excerpt of Barthes' text while leafing through my copy of "Fashion Theory: A Reader". I reproduce it here, for your pleasure:

Where the Garment Gapes by Roland Bathes
Is not the most erotic portion of the body where the garment gapes? In perversion (which is the realm of textual pleasure) there are no "erogenous zones" (a foolish description, besides); it is intermittence, as psychoanalysis has so rightly stated, which is erotic: the intermittence of skin flashing between two articles of clothing (trousers and sweater), between two edges (the open-necked shirt, the glove and the sleeve); it is this flash itself which seduces, or rather: the staging of an appearance-as-disappearance.
The pleasure of the text is not the pleasure of the corporeal striptease or of narrative suspense. In these cases, there is no tear, no edges: a gradual unveiling: the entire excitation takes refuge in the hope of seeing the sexual organ (schoolboy's dream) or in knowing the end of the story (novelistic satisfaction). Paradoxically (since it is mass-consumed), this is a far more intellectual pleasure than the other: an Oedipal pleasure (to denude, to know, to learn the origin and the end), if it is true that every narrative (every unveiling of the truth) is a staging of the (absent, hidden, or hypostatized) father- which would explain the solidarity of narrative forms, of family structures, and of prohibitions of nudity, all collected in our culture in the myth of Noah's sons covering his nakedness.

Even though the biblical myth about clothing that first comes to mind is the tale of how Adam and Eve, once they bate from the fruit of the tree God had forbidden them, realized their nakedness and felt shame, resorting to covering themselves with fig leaves and hiding from God, Barthes here quotes another biblical tale because he needs the family structure to link to the idea of Oedipal pleasure. But I think there is something that must be underlined from the first myth: Adam and Eve constitute their selves, separate form God and each other -because they cover themselves before God actually finds them- , when they feel shame at their nudity. The feeling of shame is at the root of the birth of their identities. Much like Derrida's befuddlement the moment he feels his cat's gaze on his naked body (described in his book "The Animal That Therefore I Am"), Adam and Eve feel the need to cover themselves from the other's gaze -whether those eyes belong to each other, God, or the animals matters little-. The feeling of shame Adam and Eve experienced separated them from the other animals; Derrida questions whether an animal can truly be naked. This question points at the charged nature of the human body. This charged nature is not constituted by an act of the person/body in question, this charged nature is part of our cultural baggage and each person inherits it from their upbringing. Women's buttocks, breasts, and vagina/men's buttocks and penis are the body parts that have the most erotic charge, those which are taboo to show in public. Generally there are less zones that are considered erogenous in men, more in women; women's bodies are highly sexualized. (Animal's bodies are not given the same meaning, there is no taboo associated with their "nudity".)


"Judgement" by Rosea Posey

The use of sheer fabrics in clothing problematizes the coupling naked/clothed (associated with revealed/concealed, truth/lie) and the charged nature of the body. Technically, the woman in Scott's photograph is clothed: she is wearing a blouse. But the blouse she is wearing is made of chiffon, the only parts made of an opaque fabric are the collar, the buttoned placket, the cuffs, and the pockets. These pockets happen to be conveniently placed so that they hide her breasts, since she opted to wear the blouse with nothing underneath, taking advantage of the fabric's transparency. Because of this transparency, the “long, sloping curve of the torso” is revealed, the fact that she is not wearing underwear emphasizing the illusion of nakedness and the erotic charge of her body ("the hope of seeing the sexual organ"). Nevermind the fact that she has a coat over her shoulders, our mind's eye can complete the full picture of her revealed torso quite easily.What is suggested is just as -or even more- present to us as what is actually shown. This is "where the garment gapes" taken to its furthest possibilities, "the staging of an appearance-as-disappearance" has never been so fully realized. Certainly, when wearing sheer clothing, what you choose to hide is just as important as what you choose to reveal. The fact that the clothing here seems to work towards revealing instead of concealing is what problematizes the couplings listed above. I think that we can take away from this example that the coupling concealed/revealed is not mutually exclusive in fashion. When we dress our bodies, we are both concealing and revealing them.

The question I can't shake is: if shame is at the origin of our identities and is what drove us to clothe our bodies, where does sheer clothing leave us? It must be assumed that the individual who chooses to wear sheer clothing feels little to no shame about his/her body. Once the identity is formed, can shame truly be discarded? Where has that shame gone? Maybe it has been momentarily suppressed by those individuals who, donning sheer clothing, choose to make a small, personal challenge against their culture, being fully aware of the charged nature of the body. Maybe it's been projected into the minds of the spectators, those who start to increasingly notice their own voyeurism, and even to those who choose to judge that manner of dress as unacceptable.

There were some people who followed this last mindset... There were some -let's say- "less-smart"comments on Scott's post which said something along the lines of "only someone with her body type can pull this off"; that women with "curvy"/"feminine" bodies would reveal too much, bringing them closer to "slutty" instead of "classy". Ironically enough, there seemed to be no consensus on what was "slutty" v.s. what was "classy". The terms are subjective, they can mean different things to different people in various cultures. I've actually started thinking that those who feel a certain body isn't being covered enough are translating their own "modesty" values/fears of their body. By this I mean certain parts they would personally not be comfortable showing, or parts they are ashamed of, transmitting their ideas of what parts/bodies are unacceptable unto another body. All this without first considering that what is acceptable/unacceptable varies by culture and by individual. The bodies of other individuals are used as our mirror, we bounce back our own images from them. We have a tendency to constitute our self image by noting the difference between our body and the body of the other. This has proven to be problematic, of course. (We've all heard of body dismorphia, which can cause a messed-up relationship with food and lead to eating disorders.) In this society, the transparency of fat bodies is unacceptable: the most common way of designing fashion for fat bodies is made to hide and de-sexualize them. (What other reason could there be for the existence of the muumuu? But seriously, if you want examples, I'm sure others have written about it.)

These are a few thoughts I've been trying to shape, ever since the original photo was posted, and that have begun snowballing with the added influence taken from reading an essay about Derrida's "The Animal That Therefore I Am". I am not sure of the answers, I am not sure if the approximate analysis I have made has been clear and satisfactory, but I do know one thing: it is important to voice the questions. They are written here and the discussion has been opened, care to join?

Sunday, March 17, 2013

Add It Up

The best way of rocking my DIY studded vest? Paired with a striped skirt. Plus a beret with a bit of military flavor. Accessorizing hats with brooches is a good way to mix things up a little. This outfit is so spunky and fun that I've worn it a few times. The only recent purchase included is the coffin ring:


Beret: Claire's
Brooch: unknown
Vest: DIY
Boots: Olsenboye




Bat ring & Coffin ring: CAB FayreAlice Dear Arts
Bracelets and Wristcuff: Forever 21 & Hot Topic


This skirt is a handmade one-off and I feel so lucky I got my hands on it. The fabric is black and white stripes but it also has a very cool crowned skull print. It can be worn with lolita, creepy-cute, punk or goth outfits; and it has pockets! Though I love creepy-cute at this moment, I came up with this combination well before I knew this trend existed. Interesting how it has many elements that would fit into that aesthetic. 

On other news, I have a new twitter, if you wanna check it out! ;)

Sunday, March 10, 2013

Kawaii Mail Dump

I've received a few purchases in the mail this week, and they were the most adorable packages I've ever had the pleasure of opening. 

 
A thank-you note written on Little Twin Stars stationary, a surprise pink-mint candy clip, and a carousel bag which contained another polka dot bag with the pins inside. The packaging is really the cutest thing I've ever seen. 


Where did I get this set from?
(Carousels are a recurring theme, you see.)


Pinned on my floral denim jacket, where they rightfully belong.



A second lovely package:

I think I'm going to have to get a nice scrapbook of some sort where I can stick all these things. They're just too precious to throw away, and it would be great if I could find a creative way of storing (hoarding) them.




No cute packaging this time, just more pins I got from etsy that fit this theme of kitschy pastel pop-art casual cute things that I'm rolling with. (I think scrolling through so many Kera scans and tokyo street snaps on tumblr got to me...) I started collecting pins since I realized I could use them to decorate my denim jacket and vest. They're incredibly fun and add that quirky feel I'm going for.


Bonus:
A silly pseudo-purikura picture of me tryin'a be all cute in my Twinkle Bats sweater.